Living in the toilet!

Unfortunately I now feel that the toilet/bathroom has become my second home. I seem to live 'on the throne!' - I must be keeping Andrex in business - I go through at least one loo roll per day. It is a very miserable existence and I have had a history of anal fissures and fistulas, which is hardly a surprise given my present situation. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I don't have another fissure brewing. It is all so miserable, and I feel so sore and dirty because of this condition. My life seems governed by this condition as it has declined over the last nine months since the surgery which initially was so amazing. I wish I could reclaim my life. https://youtu.be/AizvTurY97Y